You know those things you say you will never do? They are never on your bucket list. And never on your radar.
Mine has been weight loss surgery. I have told myself time and time again that I can do this on my own. That I can do the work. And I have... and I have stalled and I have done well and fallen off wagons. And I have done the work.
In December I felt a shift. My husband and I had a very honest conversation about surgery and while he has never been anything but supportive about my efforts, I wanted his support in this. It's nice to know he loves me as I am and that there is no doubt about his support. And we talked about the pros and cons of surger. And in December I spoke with my older sister, my biggest cheerleader, and we talked about the pros and cons. And I did the research. I have attended seminars and support groups. I have talked to weight loss centers and etc. Each and every time the pro's have outweighed the con's.
And I am scheduled for Weight Loss Surgery. I have been hesitant to tell people and to broadcast it, but I have also been at peace with this. And this morning, the financing revealed itself. And it's a go. This week I have pre-op testing and a nutritionist appointment. I also still need to do a psych eval. There are many lose ends to fuse together. And I'm excited and nervous.
I am 32 years old and overweight. I don't want to be 35 and overweight. I want to stress about affording trips and bucket lists, not stress if I am going to fit in the plane seat or if I can deal with the physical struggles of travel and goals.
I know this changes my goals on here a bit, but I think it's going to be a great journey. I don't think it's going to be easy, it's not. But I do promise you I will be real about the whole process.
Why am I blogging this? I need a tribe, this will take a village. I would love for you to be a part of it.