Surgery is hard Y'all.
I suppose that if it wasn't, everyone would do it. I expected and prepared for so much except that it was real. Research is one thing, living is another. A month ago I was successfully sleeved. I would do it all again as well.
I'm past the pureed food, that was probably the worst. I found baby food that worked, but honestly that stage almost broke me. My last day of pureed I blended a hamburger and it was the best thing I had eaten in easily a month... Now I am on soft foods and it's fine. I've used the slow cooker and will bake some flaky salmon tonight for a change.
I've lost 20 pounds since surgery. In my mind I know that's great, in my heart I wish it was higher. I've had a few weeks of slow stalls. And I did the research, I knew this would happen... but it's so hard to live it. But I keep plugging away and following the rules. Protein, Protein, Protein. and Water, Water, Water. It gets old, but spices and variety helps. Luckily I didn't get the water nausea that many do right after surgery, but it IS harder to drink water than something with a little flavor. Starbucks Iced Passion Tea has been a life saver. I buy the trenta 30 oz and sip on it all day.
Since my wedding in September last year I've lost over 100 pounds. It's exciting to get on the scale and see the number go down. I SEE the number and I know I feel better, but I don't see the differences when I look in the mirror. I know that is something I need to continue to work on. I'm taking pictures for progress and hope that eventually I will see the difference. I know it's there, but again it's another head vs heart thing I think.
All of this rambling to say, I'm here. I'm very much alive. And it's worth it.